Sunday, June 16, 2013

January 2004 (13 years old)


Note: I have not altered the grammar or punctuation from how it was written down. That's why it doesn't make sense in some parts.

January 1st 6:35 pm

I'm sorry Dear Diary that my handwriting was not to my best abilities. It was just that I was so tired but I didn't know it. Guess what me and mother put my desk together, with help from Darryl It's so beautiful and now I have privacy when doing homework and writing in you.
I will stop here because I would like to draw some pictures.

January 2nd 1:06 pm

I didn't get a wink of sleep untill almost 2:00 am last night I don't know why though I think it's because my brother was sleeping in the same room with me. Today I drew a lovely picture of flowers If you want to see it go in my sketch pad and find it. Goodbye for now.
(Two kitten stickers stuck at the bottom of the page.

January 10th Saturday 5:57 pm

In the end of this month Dear Diary I will be loosing another friend Alysha She will be moving to toronto. I have a great sadness in my heart knowing that there is not much time left untill she leaves It's all because of her uncaring mother It's not fair. My friends are always moving away and I don't know who will be next.

January 19 Monday

Cold
Snow is probably over 2 feet tall mabe smaller I'm not sure and they say it will snow even more I was sick on friday and had to stay home Today I have to do the homework I missed. Alysha left early and I'm so depressed about it. I think my heart will burst with sadness but I suppose it is time to move on I can talk to her on the internet and write.

I've also learned something devastating about B's life. B is one of my closest friends. I discovered from B herself that her mother is abusive and mean to her. Becky said through tears of pain that she was deeply afraid of her and had to run away just to get away from her. As she told me this I was greatly mortified when she told me this because my mother wouldn't lay a hand on me.
Becky also told me that her aunt and uncle were trying to take her bed away from her and they wouldn't let her see her dying dof or her cousin and that she hasn't seen her father.

She also told me that shes mad that she thinks the teacher is out to get her I feel ever so sorry for her predicament. But I must depart.
My hand is cramping

January 20th

Cold
More snow
It's amazing how much more snow there is it is up to my knees. It's ten minutes till lunchtime and I'm starving Right now I'm listening to the teacher read to us a very good book

Later
Guess what after History we had an Assembly. 4 midgets who played a mean game of basketball against the teachers they taught us about how just because they're small or different you'd be happy just to be friends. A cameraman and News reporter came and filmed it. I missed some but at 6:00 we were on t.v. and I saw myself and everyone in our school they even interviewed some kids If it hadn't been for B I could have gotten one of the midgets autographs and maybe be on t.v. more or even be interviewed. 
It's just not fair.

After school I jumped around in the incredibly deep snow untill I got really cold but in all it's been an okay tuesday.

Later 
Mother has gotten home from work because this is the week she has to stay till around 6:00 instead of 5:30

And since it's after dinner I'm going to have icecream

January 21 Wed

Guess what dear diary I get to see a hockey game actually it's just about to start. I'm sitting in my seat awaiting the game to start in 13 minutes I think It's snowing even more and we got to come in a Checker limosene Me and matthew got drinks and watched in awe as the players practised A puck actually got over the mesh wall and almost hit someone. Now we are waiting for the game to start. More later Nothings happening now.

Almost the moment after I wrote in you Some people roled out a red carpet and announced the presence of Don Cherry and Bobby Orr. I was totally perplexed to actually see these living legends. Then they played the American and Canadian anthems and then they started playing it was very exhilerating to watch but by the second period I got bord and started reading my book they passed out prizes and I had a hot dog and we decided to leave after the second period ended. When I was waiting to leave I saw the mayor I was quite surprised to see her. After that we caught a cab went home and went to bed. In my opinion it has been a busy tiring and fun day.

January 22 Friday

It is friday and I just got through a math test I had to leave a question blank because I didn't know how to do it and I ran out of time I've finished another Dear Canada book and I'm onto another one I love these series immensly and I hope they never stop being made GoOd bye for now Dear Diary. I want to read.

January 23 Sat

I finally had time to clean up my room I watched t.v and got time to read and play on the computer and I have lots of time left to write in you Dear diary
I've recently looked back at what I've wrote in you Dear Diary and If I do say so myself I think I've written pretty well compared to my old diary which was boring and had none of my thoughts and feelings in it. It also only had init what I did during the day. Now I've improved in my writing skills and I think I put more emotion into what I write and so ends todays entry for now

January 29 Fri P.D. Day!

If your unsure what a P.D. day is  itis a day on surtain fridays where we get the day off which means we get a three day weekend and i've been spending it by watching all the shows they don't show on the weekend. I may not have done anything today but that's just what I want to do
nothing.
Later
My brother is a beast
he decided to steale the t.v and change it when I was trying to watch it. When I became cross at him He threw you at me I was so furious I flew into a rage and began chasing him into the bathroom I never layed a finger on him but he was cowering on the floor so I went back and kept watching t.v

Adios for now




Why not put all your childhood journal entries on a blog?

Ever since I was four years old, I've felt compelled to keep a record of my life. I remember, and still have somewhere, the little stapled booklet with "Dear Diary" on the front (penned by my mom). Inside, a simple little entry dictated in my mothers neat printing.

"Dear Diary, Matthew is weird, but he's cute"
Or something to that effect, I haven't found it yet.

Where did I get the idea for this?
That one chipmunks show where the chipettes all have diaries. They write all sorts of scandalous secrets then peak at eachothers books. Drama ensues.

Ever since then I've been keeping record of my thoughts, doings, purchases, meals goals and secrets.
There are whole months and sometimes years worth of gaps but there still remains a sizeable and motley collection of books covered in stickers and doodles and cats.
Keeping the evidence of my inner awkward weirdo growing up, has been a riot to me now as a fairly grown-up person. The language I used to use, the stuff I thought was the end of the world or big news has changed so much over the years. Seeing areas where I've changed so much with things that have never changed (list-writing, being hard on myself, goofy pseudo-fancy writing attempts) has been powerful for gaining insight into who I am now and where I want to go. 

Blabbity blabbity blah,

But at the moment, all of these books are sitting in my mothers house collecting dust with no way of looking through them if I am not currently stationed at Home Base.
So I will post them here.

Plus, some of them are hilarious (at least my brother and I think so)

Enjoy. 
The entries have been organized by year into each month. So I shall start with January, the logical starting point.